Wednesday, April 8, 2009

I Vant To be Alone...

Greta Garbo said it best, "I vant to be alone." In fact it was the line that made her famous. It has become my new slogan.

Never before in this lifetime have I felt the desire to be a hermit like I do now. Is it menopause or finally getting fed-up with the bullshit of relationships? Maybe both. All I know is the allure of living celibate and single has never felt stronger or more right than it does currently.

I eat when I want, sleep when I want, wear what I want, buy what I want, go where I want...well I think you get the picture. The yearning for a partner has all but evaporated.

I confess there were times in my life when that prospect of being alone scared the hell out of me. It doesn't freak me out any more. In fact, the opposite is true. I shudder at the thought of having someone in my life at this point. Putting on make-up and oozing charm just doesn't appeal to me these days. There's a certain freedom in that.

Society seems to expect us to mate for life but in reality it seems ridiculous to maintain that human beings are monogamous. Sure, you can love someone forever I suppose, but that doesn't mean you can't love 3 or 4 other people along the way. And it doesn't necessarily mean you can't have a complete life without a significant other lodged up your behind.

It feels pretty refreshing to have a clear mind and an unbroken heart for a change. I think I should like to bask in that single light for a long while or forever if fate sees fit. I've always said a simple life is a happy life and the older I get the more I see that adage holds fast. People are complicated.

"If you are blessed, you are blessed, whether you are married or single. " Greta said that as well.


Amen, sister, amen.


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